2009-05-21 04:15:02
i'll be going on a trip to walt disney world and wont be back until next tuesday. As i sit and type this i'm actually trying to hold a panic attach at bay. i think its because everything has been going on all at once and i really haven't had a chance to breath or relax much. Summer classes have started up, my mother recently graduated from red rocks, my sister just graduated form a-west. their has been a lot of changes at work with more to come, and havn't gotten the feeling of pressure off of me yet.....i'm sure i'll have an anxiety attack before we leave for the airport and i'll freak out before take-off and landing. And then theirs all the stuff my parents have planned.

should not have had qudoba for dinner, the heart burn is killing me.....

i keep saying a little mantra in my head 'you've been to disney world, you dont have to ride anything you dont want to, you can do this and you will do this' it seems to be helping. of course it wont be any better when i get down their but i'll let my parents know so that they can keep an eye on me, and i can go back to the hotel room when ever i want, so i'm hoping all will be good.

when i get back i plan on updating my gallery and then doing nothing for awhile because i know i'll need a breather.

if this is how i'm acting now i dont want to know what i'll be like around graduation.